#fail

I fail SOOOOOO hard right about now! Today is March 24, 2010. You guys are about to be soooo upset with me.......... *wait for it* ...........ten days ago, I looked in the mirror and said enough is QUITE enough. I took my shears (hair scissors) and snipped away little by little at all of my relaxed ends. Yup, March 14, 2010 yours truly ended her transitioning journey and stepped into full napturality. Below are pictures of the days following:

I can't exactly say why I didn't document my big chop. After months of writing down every little detail of my journey, why wouldn't I be snapping pictures left and right before, during and after? I'd always imagined how I would document me saying my final goodbye to the only me that I'd ever known but when the time came, it just didn't seem right. It was my time with me. I didn't text, call, tweet, facebook, or messanger pigeon anyone to warn them of what I was about to do. Not that I thought anyone would try to talk me out of my spur of the moment decision but, I just wanted to do this without any outside influences. If I were going to chop all of my length off then I was going to do it without the encouragement or discouragement of anyone else. Afterall, it's MY head. As far as next day reactions go, honestly, no one seemed to notice! My linesister however did take note that my hair was shorter than usual.

So anyway, after cutting my hair in what I will describe to be a trance like state of shock, I proceeded to wash it and see what MY hair could do. I won't lie, I was confused. After 10 months plus of transitioning and studying my new growth under a microscope I was surprised to find that my hair was not a curly texture at all, but an afro texture. It took a few to get used to it after I realized that products like Kinky Curly Curling Custard did absolutely nothing but made my hair sticky. I kinda felt like I was back at square one, thrusted into a perfectly new world of unknowns, insecurities and uncertainties. Here I go again...not knowing what looks and works best again. But I know one thing, I am never looking back.